Thursday, June 12, 2008 haiz, i realised in order for me to treasure something, i hv to lose them first. it always goes like that. like i didnt know how to treasure you, till you wen overseas. even d first time you wen and came back i didnt treat you better again. why? i kindda hate myself. this time i'm really gonna cherish whatever i have. when i passed by casurina today after trg i remembered how you purposely stopped there to buy something for me. thanks. i love you a lot <3 come back safely alrite. trg is like sucky. haiz. jealousy kills everything, that's all i havta say. i feel like giving up on myself, but everytime i do i feel guilty. of everything i have put in. i guess lotsa people expect tons of things outa me, but i guess i keep disappointing them. i'm sorry i guess. just that i cant get use to this, i wanna be d best at everything i do. i'm used to it already i guess. since i was young. somehow lar, i also dunno. when i was in chi dance last time i was always d one that tr uses to teach d rest cos i only needa look and listen to d music once and i will rmb d steps, so i'm always d one demo-in. and when i was in p1 i was d youngest to take part in d exam also anw. den after tt was swimming. haha, that's not that bad. the instructor's zhengjie's father i rmb. haha. he still tell me to go to kuochuan instead so hv swimming cca so can go there. but i didnt in d end. haha, obvious. den vball's d best :D didnt even nid to learn how to play i jus know it. somehow la, i also dunno why. didnt nid to learn, jus can start training with d rest. so cool lar. unlike tabletennis, spend so much time training also cant play properly. i guess i'm jus not meant to play lar. even chinese dance is better lar. esp after watchin d video when i was young, so funny la. everytime d rest get scolded de, not me. my mum was still tellin me say last time she wanted me to cont chi dance, don wan me play tabletennis one. cos last time wen i wanted to quit dance d teacher was very reluctant. keep persuading me to stay de. so funny. but kindda regretted, esp when i was so stupid to go and join tabletennis o.O ok, enof abt that man. today i so zai ^^ meeting weizhen at 10 i wake up at 930. smart me la. wahaha. den i scared late so i faster bath, den pack my stuff den half walk half run to mrt. den end up i earlier than weizhen xP haha. i reach 5 min b4 10 somemore. wahaha. *pause* [ Booya :D. he bathed he sent and poof I reached bishan library. Yihui took the 2nd floor cubicle so up I went (: we looked for books for history and Chinese and she told me about da chang jin. :D oh man I needa read the book all by this weekend man. That's 16 books to read ): gosh I suck. Anyway I met Eileen in the lib (: ahah. We lunched and went back and borrowed more books :D and that bout sums up the day.] tat's wad weizhen posted :D so that's all. haha. ok after tt meet chenqiong and chloe den we to take mrt to sch. yup, that's my day. ok gotta go and watch tv. (: bye <3 |
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