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Tuesday, September 2, 2008
haiz, training soon. damn. i'm tired, tireddd ): the time when i'm playing pass really fast eh, soon it will be training. damn i'm dreading training loads. my back hurts, even medicine dosent help anymore ): everything isnt going right, like really everything. school, training, my whole life. nothing's going my way. WHY? nt like anyone is gonna tell me. life's meaningless to me. like wad amanda said we should all go for group suicide ... truth is i'm scared. what if i'm not able to reach that standard, how many people will i be letting down? i know i can do it, but accidents happen all the time. what if i'm just that unfortunate. i'm afraid of this world, really. should i give it a try, cos if i really try my best i'm sure i can achieve everything, and i will then be able to prove wad im worth to others, and not let others look down on me. BUT wad if i fail? i really really dunno wad to do. its either everything or nothing.
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